My journey
Ever look up the sky and ask the Universe …
“WHO AM I??”
“WHAT DO I WANT?”
“WHAT DO I STAND FOR?”
My commitment towards personal growth and longing to feel deep intimacy was spurred by a slew of traumatic experiences, physical and emotional…and your fair share of giving up my power and voice away to anyone I assumed knew better.
“Sure, why not?” — living life without personal boundaries #shame #regret #blame
On an acid trip one music festival in 2014, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I had been living a life of production, performance, people-pleasing. I was floating as a passenger to my own life under what I thought my parents expected me to be. Closeted and feeling my soul dying living in industrial China working under the pressures of fulfilling my father’s legacy #secondgenerationfamilybusinesswoes
I also realized I was a total fake in every relationship I had been in and never allowed myself to feel and receive love, running away before things ever got too serious…#avoidance #intimacyissues
From then on, I vowed to give my soul the allowance to unravel and discover my own personal Truth, my pursuit to surrender, love, and trust…whatever it takes…
So I journeyed far and wide.
From high achieving masculine to empowered feminine holistic arts personal development courses, social entrepreneurship bootcamps, life coaching programs, consciousness festivals, open mic nights ecstatic dance floors, Orgasmic meditation retreats…(inhale).
From interviewing hundreds of people about their core values to understand BEING-ness to creating BEDtalks, sensory containers to research intimacy. From diving deep in cults and community circles in non-attached clitoral stroking meditation practices for your compressed wakeup to going to Priestess school to learn tantra, taoism, shamanism and sacred sexuality (exhale)… From going to Burning Man and ascending into the 4D diving deeper into my cosmic being. From living in a new home every two weeks, city after city, east to west, nomadic by choice in my relentless pursuit to “figure me out”…
I’ve chased after myself…like a dog chases its own tail. Shapeshifting time after time.
Learning life lessons on the way taking with me powerful communication tools, healing modalities that I use to this day.
And through varied experiences, successes and failures, heart leaps and heartaches, I slowly began the process of removing the conditioning of my Asian subservient girl, dismantling the “should be” life, breaking down my walls of avoidance and the internal battling noises of “I’m not enough,” “I’m too much,” “I don’t belong” “i’m hopeless and broken” , going from victimhood and blame into personal responsibility.
Done with playing small, I claim my power again.
I embrace my sexuality, my body, my heart, my power, my voice, my yoni.
I found myself…
Which brings me to this profound realization…
That my massive transformation into calling in my BAMFY (badassmofcker) empowered Cosmic dragon Priestess Warrior self, (uncover that throat chakra YO and ROAR) was when I said yes to diving deep into the shadows of my repressed sexuality.
And I don’t look back at all…
Know that the bigger the taboo, the bigger the fear or avoidance, the more precious the fruit
Which has me curious to ask if you’ve read this far…
Perhaps you too are on the brink of self discovery too…
Perhaps you feel the thirst for personal transformation, sexual liberation, growth.
Perhaps you are desiring to learn how to break free from the reigns of your own conditioning and live to your fullest potential
The truth is it’s so much easier when you can do this work together.
It’s shit when you feel alone.
So I invite you into this journey with me….
I invite you to fully FEEL to wholly HEAL.
I invite you to step into your personal Truth.
I invite you to consider my offerings.
I invite you to visualize your liberation and transformation.